The Lord is My Shepherd

Psalm 23

David declares, The Lord is my shepherd.

A Psalm of David.

1 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

Psalms 23:1-6

http://www.lds.org/scriptures/ot/ps/23?lang=eng

These past couple of weeks have been my Ghetsemani. The aftermath of Nataly's leaving, the hurtful and unjust actions of the CPS, and rudeness of the adoption agency case worker assigned to our family have tried my faith and stole the peace of my heart. We are not to have any contact with her family, we are not to contact CPS to get an update on her, etc. I sometimes feel like I am living a nightmare but it's real. I pray for hope and happier times where our hurt can be healed and this sweet baby watched over and blessed. 

We will probably change the adoption agency we're working with going forward. The unfortunate experience s we had after her leaving our home have put a very bitter taste of how the state/CPS "cares" about these children, how they do their job, and how they treat those who truly love and look for the best interest of these children. 

The memory of the wonderful seven months of parenting and loving Nataly will always stay with us. The rest I hope will wash away with time and hopefully, better experiences in the future.